Saturday, December 13, 2014

The Tree House Effect

        The sky proved gray on the brisk morning. Heartland sat inside staring out the window at the dreary and slow moving clouds. She looked at them with blank expression, not wanting to dignify the clouds with her emotion. She knew they were watching and she wasn’t about to slip up and let them get to her.
        Heartland had been to San Francisco once when she was four. It had been for a “family business trip” her father had said. It was a weird trip. But ever since she went there, people always said that she had “left her heart in San Francisco.” She thought those people were stupid. Heartland figured they must know nothing of human anatomy. All the same, she took after her mother. She loved the sun.
        So when the skies turned gray and dripped then dried, then dripped then dried, Heartland wanted to stay far from the front door and simply sit and have her staring contest with the bleak sky.
        Rylan ran in with a burst of energy and an aftertaste of mischief. But Rylan was Rylan, and he always proved that his head could stay between his shoulders. He had a gleeful smile about him, because his heart was far far away from the “Golden State.”
        Heartland scooted over to make room for Rylan’s predictable bound onto the window seat. He smashed his face against the window, in the way that your nose goes all wibbly wobbly. Rylan breathed his hot breathe onto the window and made a little smiley face. He turned to his sister,
        “Don’t be all glum, Heartland. Have you ever thought about why the rain is wonderful?”
        “Oh, plenty of times. But have you ever thought of why the rain isn’t wonderful?”
        “No. I never needed to.” Heartland gave a smiling sigh and turned her face slightly back towards the window.
        “Ha! I made you smile.”
        “Yeah, but only because I was laughing at how dumb you can be.”
        “Well, if liking smiles is dumb, then I’ll gladly be labeled dumb ‘til the day I die.” Rylan lifted up his chest and crossed his arms in short defiance. He couldn’t quite wipe the smile off his face though.
        “Who have you been listening to? You don’t talk like that.”
        Rylan smiled bigger now,
        “I heard Dad talk like that. But I don’t think he was talking about smiles, or being dumb. And Dad can’t be dumb anyway.” Heartland smiled again.
        “You did it again! See! Smiling is better. Happy is better. Rain is better!”
        “Well, some of that is true.”

        Heartland sat in another staring match. This time her opponent was white, not gray. Her foe had red battle paint down its whole body. It stared at her with evil intent. Finally she reached for her pencil and began to write.
        “Napoleon Bonaparte was the Emperor of France for 11 years, he was the abolisher of feudalism, and the idea of a “Napoleon Complex” was understandably based off his misrepresented life. Napoleon, born the 15th of August in 1769, grew up in a noble Italian family from Corsica. An interesting fact about him is…”
        “Hey Heartland!” Her pencil stopped moving and she looked up from the paper to notice her brother’s call.
        “Yeeees, Rylan?” She asked in legato tone.
        His small head leaned around the door, “Come outside!”
        “Rylan, I have a paper to write. And it’s raining!”
        “Heartland, please! It’s important. I really really need your help.”
        Heartland gave out an exaggerated sigh, “Right now?”
        “Yes! Come quick,” Rylan replied and then his head dipped away from sight. Heartland slowly rose from her seat and left Napoleon on the table. She made her way to the door.
        “Heartland, where are you?”
        “I’m getting my coat!”
        “Leave it, come now!” Heartland began to hurry slightly, thinking that there might actually be something that Rylan needed help with. She walked outside, the cold grabbed at her, she ran to her brother to keep away from it.
        Rylan was sitting near a tree, crouched down. Heartland rubbed her arms and impatiently asked, “Ok, Rylan, what do you need?” Her brother looked up and her.
        “I need you to come up in the tree with me.”
        “Rylan, do you actually need help with something or not?”
        “Pleeeeeease!” Rylan fake-whined at his sister.
        “Fine! But then I need to rush back to my paper.” The two of them in turn climbed the wood pieces that were nailed to the tree. They slowly ascended into the leaves and then clambered their way up onto the wood planks that were molded around the tree.
        Heartland felt the temperature change from the insulated warmth that the tree provided. She made sure not to mention it. Rylan sat across from her and looked just right at her face with a silly smile.
        “What?” Heartland asked after he stared for five or so moments.
        “Nothing. I’m just happy that you’re happy?”
        “Oh? And why am I happy right now?”
        “Because you’re here and you have a brain.”
        “Mmm, riiiight. I may have a brain, but I’m not psychic. What are you talking about?”
        “You remember when mom would bring us sandwiches after dad first built it? Remember the little bucket we had to send up food or send down messages? Remember that?”
        “Yes, I remember all that.”
        “Then you’re happy, right?”
        “Umm, I guess.”
        “I guess, Or you are?”
        “Rylan, stop. It’s whatever. Stop worrying about me. I’m happy. See, I’m smiling.”
        “Don’t whatever me.”
        “Oh, and now you’re copying Mom, eh?”
        “Yeah, because mom is always right.”
        “Okay, Rylan. Whatever you say.” Heartland rolled her eyes then set them back on her little brother who looked right at her. He just stared for a while.
        Heartland opened her mouth,
        “I… Okay. I’ll try to smile more. You happy?”
        “Only if you are.” Heartland smiled. She crawled over the creaky wood and sat on her knees in front of her brother. She reached for Rylan and pulled him into a hug. Heartland lightly spoke in his ear,
        “I’m smiling now, Rylan."

Monday, July 28, 2014

Falling from Up

When I'm in the sky
I always feel that
i am going to fall

I look down down below
and something in me says
"You're going to fall"

But it's not
a fear
no
it's more of
An Expectation

It doesn't scare me
it's always just a blink
in my thoughts

The ground seems close
and far away
all at once

"The ground pulls
at my feet"


Being sucked towards the earth
just makes sense

But I stay afloat in the clouds
Always expecting the crash
Always sailing on into the sunset
Always staring at the ground
waiting and waiting
for me to hit it

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Goodbye

Up on the hill again,
sand at their feet,
the falling sun in their eyes

Orange was never brighter,
purple was never deeper,
the explosion was never louder

Their whispers nor their smiles
could have been softer
as they watched the fall

She held tighter
so he held on
to not let go

But he did
let go,
just as the sun hit the hills

Then just him and
sand between his fingers
watched the light flicker and fall

He walked from the hill
with the moon in his eyes
and sand trailing from his hands

Monday, March 24, 2014

But Together

He watched her hair toss in the breeze.
Her brown eyes rose.



"If I cry now, will you hold me close?"
"Of course. But, you must know, I'll cry too."



Her head rested on his shoulder.
They walked down the hill together.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Mended



             I loved the spirals of purple and the twists of pink,
             the gorgeous green running below each stem, pulling it all together, making it perfect.
             I watched as she sat amidst the cascade of color in the dewy grove.
            She sniffed each one she could reach. She delicately felt each petal. So beautiful.
            Then she noticed me. I saw the minute change in her face, almost contained. 
            She smiled. I smiled. I walked up the incline and sat with her in the glade…

























“They’re beautiful.”
“Yeah, they are.”
           
“But, it’s hard to understand them.”
“I know.”

She sighed.
“It’s okay.” I smiled again. 
“It takes time for them to grow.”

Thursday, January 23, 2014

His Love, Her Knowledge

“I think I’ve decided,” I declared.

“Decided what?” she asked in return.

“That I truly love you and when we’re old, you and I are going to get married.”

“Really?” she questioned.

“Yup.”

“But you don’t even know me.”

“I know your name, age, family, and even your favorite color and flavor.”

“Okay, but do you really know who I am?”

“Well…”

“I don’t think you do.”

“Yeah, but I don’t think you do either.”

“Exactly.”

...

“So, until you really know me, you can’t really love me, and you can’t actually marry me.”

“So I can’t just love you now?”

“Do you know me yet?”

“No…”

“Then there’s your answer.”

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Thrive

He told me how.
But I didn’t believe him.

He never let up.
So I began to ignore.

He just wanted to help.
But I thought I was too far-gone.

He disagreed.


He reached for me.
I ran from him.

He cried for me.
I cried for me.

He loved me.
I was certain I was too broken for that.

He still loved me.


He waited for me.
I thought he left.

He watched with the eyes of a lover.
I screamed with the voice of despair.

He felt my pain as his own.
I cried to be understood.

He knew me.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Finding

I want to run to the sea
To the place where I can rest
Breathe in the ever-moving consistency
The ever-changing breath
The comforting breeze
My freedom, my sight

Find me the forest, on the edge of the sea
The home that I've always dreamed of
Where life meets life, in the glade, in the breeze
Let me run with the creatures and sing with the sea
And remember back when
The place we came alive

To be found in that place
With a smile and only a few words
Someone can tell you the rest
Nature has a way of saying what words cannot
I want you to find me there
In that place
With that heart



          I'll talk with the animals and with the stars
          Laugh with the ocean and with the winds
          Sit with the rocks and with the sands
          Live in the trees and in the lands
          And watch as time rolls back
          Ask me then, maybe I'll know the answer
          Probably not

          Then I'll sigh and I'll sing
          I'll dance and I'll shout
          I'll walk and I'll run

          Not because I'll know
          But because I can be okay with not

          But what I'll have learned
          Is where to look and where to find